Is it safe to come out? I think Ivan's finally gone, taking wind and rain with him. I'm glad I'm in Middle Tennessee where our only real fear was flash flooding and maybe a few trees or limbs down. I stayed indoors all of yesterday because I'm just not a big fan of rain, but maybe today I can go walkabout and check on things. My boss called me late yesterday afternoon to let me know that I shouldn't have skipped the "town meeting" Wednesday afternoon. They gave out the People's Choice Awards for employees in Informatics who "exemplify the Informatics Core Values ", and surprisingly enough, I was a nominee. All jokes aside, I'm truly touched, because it's my understanding that I had several nominations. I just do my job, and most days I don't think I'm doing a very good job of it, but apparently I am making a difference. I'd like to say thank you to those who thought of me when they filled out those forms - you've made my day.
I've never been good with expressing emotions. I always felt that emotions were a sign of weakness - part of being raised as my father's "son", I suppose. Lately I'm having a hard time bottling up those things that bubble up when people start flinging arrows and stones. Some I deserve. Others, less so. Innocent comments get taken out of context and used to further some cause. I make a genuine post about an overwhelming feeling I have, and someone turns it into an accusation, based on some sort of internet statistic that proves I've posted in response to something else. Frankly, I don't see the connection. I get angry more often than I used to, but I often feel like I've been kicked in the gut too. I'm not accustomed to that one. It usually brings tears. Intended kindnesses are perceived as attempts to control. And this post will be labeled as an attempt to send someone on a guilt trip - but hey - if the shoe fits, baby, wear it out.
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