Quote of the day: I have to exercise early in the morning before my brain figures out what I'm doing. I was going to skip the bike ride this morning. We moved the exercise bike from the dining room during the whole remodeling thing, and I haven't been using it much since, mostly because it involved finding a place to set up my laptop to run the bike. I decided last week enough was enough, so last Tuesday I started all over and set up the schedule for the exercise program again. I'm supposed to ride at least three times a week, with each of my planned weeks beginning on Tuesday. I didn't ride on Tuesday of last week, felt like crap on Wednesday, overslept on Thursday, forgot on Friday, but Saturday I felt a renewed sense of urgency to do something about my health, so off I rode. Sunday wasn't too hard, and by Monday, it was feeling like part of my daily routine. Tuesday was also easy to do. But this morning - this morning I felt like sleeping in. I mean, who really wants to be up at 5:30 sweating on an exercise bike? But the funny thing was, I couldn't do it. I couldn't go back to sleep, so I got up and rode. Guess it's a good thing. I still have this crappy creeping-crud that will not die, but I rode anyway, and on some level, I feel better.
Here I stand again, speaking to an empty room. My thoughts aren't worth the cyberspace they would take up if I cared to tweet or post to Facebook, but here I stand anyway. I had no idea how long it had been since my muse had forced me to write. I used to write almost daily, poetry mostly, when I was younger and believed that someone cared what I had to say. I wanted to be e.e. cummings or T.S. Eliot or anyone who seemed to be so comfortable in his own skin to pour out his emotions onto a blank page. It took me a few years to realize that the writers who filled my pantheon of literary deities were not that comfortable after all, but wrote because not writing was more painful than the spilling of emotion. So I think I will take up my keyboard once more, wade out into the battle, and write.
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