Perhaps I'm luckier than I think, or God smiles on me more often than He gets credit for. Either way, we still had heat this weekend - apparently our neighborhood is fed by a different line than the one which ruptured. This made for a much happier weekend. Friday night we went to a special meeting at BCC concerning some planned construction projects. Saturday we did laundry, took a nap, then went out for some quick shopping, followed by a trip to Green Hills to see Phantom. Sunday we went to church, went shopping with Miranda, then came home, put up a new ceiling fan, and crashed. Not a bad weekend, all in all. I tried to keep my mind off work, but it's hard sometimes. I'm not good at making major decisions, and this one will no doubt determine which way my career goes from here. Right now I'm waiting for the storm clouds to clear so that I can see things a little clearer.
I've never been good with expressing emotions. I always felt that emotions were a sign of weakness - part of being raised as my father's "son", I suppose. Lately I'm having a hard time bottling up those things that bubble up when people start flinging arrows and stones. Some I deserve. Others, less so. Innocent comments get taken out of context and used to further some cause. I make a genuine post about an overwhelming feeling I have, and someone turns it into an accusation, based on some sort of internet statistic that proves I've posted in response to something else. Frankly, I don't see the connection. I get angry more often than I used to, but I often feel like I've been kicked in the gut too. I'm not accustomed to that one. It usually brings tears. Intended kindnesses are perceived as attempts to control. And this post will be labeled as an attempt to send someone on a guilt trip - but hey - if the shoe fits, baby, wear it out.
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