Training classes are sometimes fun, sometimes useful, sometimes boring. I suffered through five days of stuff, of which probably only 1/5 actually applies to my current job. The rest of it was installation, backup, and restore/repair, which I will never actually get to do. No matter, though - I understand the concepts, and I could probably wing it if I had to. Now I'll have to spend three days trying to catch up on loose ends - those things I couldn't do administratively from my remote location. October's almost over. It's maddening.
I've never been good with expressing emotions. I always felt that emotions were a sign of weakness - part of being raised as my father's "son", I suppose. Lately I'm having a hard time bottling up those things that bubble up when people start flinging arrows and stones. Some I deserve. Others, less so. Innocent comments get taken out of context and used to further some cause. I make a genuine post about an overwhelming feeling I have, and someone turns it into an accusation, based on some sort of internet statistic that proves I've posted in response to something else. Frankly, I don't see the connection. I get angry more often than I used to, but I often feel like I've been kicked in the gut too. I'm not accustomed to that one. It usually brings tears. Intended kindnesses are perceived as attempts to control. And this post will be labeled as an attempt to send someone on a guilt trip - but hey - if the shoe fits, baby, wear it out.
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