Did you ever feel like you were standing on the deck of a sinking ship? Should you "bail" or should you bail? For now, I'm trying my damndest to bail water faster than it's pouring in, but it's hard. The latest project undertaken here at work has not been implemented well. They had high hopes for an automated install, which did not work as expected. They ran a scan to see if things were installed properly, based on the presence of an add-on, only to find that their logic was faulty - it turns out it's possible to have the add-on without the base program, which they didn't scan for, and it's possible to have the add-on located in different directory on the PC and still have it work. Welcome to Friday before D-Day. Tomorrow they are upgrading the server, come hell or high water. Monday all machines have to have the new client to work. My machines have all been tested by hand and are okay, so my folks are fine. I may find my weekend filled with bailing out the rest of this joint, though. {Sigh} I need a bigger bucket.
I've never been good with expressing emotions. I always felt that emotions were a sign of weakness - part of being raised as my father's "son", I suppose. Lately I'm having a hard time bottling up those things that bubble up when people start flinging arrows and stones. Some I deserve. Others, less so. Innocent comments get taken out of context and used to further some cause. I make a genuine post about an overwhelming feeling I have, and someone turns it into an accusation, based on some sort of internet statistic that proves I've posted in response to something else. Frankly, I don't see the connection. I get angry more often than I used to, but I often feel like I've been kicked in the gut too. I'm not accustomed to that one. It usually brings tears. Intended kindnesses are perceived as attempts to control. And this post will be labeled as an attempt to send someone on a guilt trip - but hey - if the shoe fits, baby, wear it out.
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