Today I had to give a presentation on how to use a program I'm not particularly fond of, and pray that I'll never have to implement in my area. Sometimes I feel like a sell-out, but hey - for the record, it worked as expected and did what I asked it to. The developers deserve kudos for a job well done. It's just slow, and that isn't the developers fault. Using this product to image a machine versus the solution we're currently using is like comparing snail mail to e-mail - both will deliver most of the time, it's just that one is WAAAAY faster than the other. I'm still trying to figure out why I was the chosen one to stand in front of all the other LAN managers and give the presentation - surely it's not my wit and style ;-)
I've never been good with expressing emotions. I always felt that emotions were a sign of weakness - part of being raised as my father's "son", I suppose. Lately I'm having a hard time bottling up those things that bubble up when people start flinging arrows and stones. Some I deserve. Others, less so. Innocent comments get taken out of context and used to further some cause. I make a genuine post about an overwhelming feeling I have, and someone turns it into an accusation, based on some sort of internet statistic that proves I've posted in response to something else. Frankly, I don't see the connection. I get angry more often than I used to, but I often feel like I've been kicked in the gut too. I'm not accustomed to that one. It usually brings tears. Intended kindnesses are perceived as attempts to control. And this post will be labeled as an attempt to send someone on a guilt trip - but hey - if the shoe fits, baby, wear it out.
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