If yesterday was Wednesday, then maybe today will be Zen day. It's not quite the weekend, the week isn't completely over, and I still have a few hours to catch up on stuff left over from last week. Didn't get to study last night; had supper at Pizza Perfect and then made a trip to Wally World, my least favorite shopping location on the planet. The good news is, they had what I needed. The bad news is, it took 30 minutes of my precious life just waiting in the 10 Items or Less checkout lane. I just find that excessive - if it only takes me 5 minutes to locate my items, why should I have to wait half an hour to pay for them? Why hasn't Wal-Mart set up self-check lines like Kroger or Home Depot or Lowes? It's not like they'd lose that much more with the 5-finger discount. And it was all the more annoying to see lines of people snaking out onto the main floor, while over half the checkout lanes were closed. "We save you money by cutting down on labor costs - we hire bottom-feeders for next-to-nothing wages, and then only keep staff at half of what it should be." Gotta love it.
I've never been good with expressing emotions. I always felt that emotions were a sign of weakness - part of being raised as my father's "son", I suppose. Lately I'm having a hard time bottling up those things that bubble up when people start flinging arrows and stones. Some I deserve. Others, less so. Innocent comments get taken out of context and used to further some cause. I make a genuine post about an overwhelming feeling I have, and someone turns it into an accusation, based on some sort of internet statistic that proves I've posted in response to something else. Frankly, I don't see the connection. I get angry more often than I used to, but I often feel like I've been kicked in the gut too. I'm not accustomed to that one. It usually brings tears. Intended kindnesses are perceived as attempts to control. And this post will be labeled as an attempt to send someone on a guilt trip - but hey - if the shoe fits, baby, wear it out.
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