Today and tomorrow I get the dubious honor of attending Microsoft security training with my fellow LAN Managers. Should be a hoot ;) We're all in fine form these days, now that we know we are actually going to get raises, and we have an idea of how much. Most, like me, have probably already calculated to the penny how much more we can expect in the old pay-snub, and how close we are to being thrown into the next tax bracket. You know, it's hard to be a democrat and have money too...
I've never been good with expressing emotions. I always felt that emotions were a sign of weakness - part of being raised as my father's "son", I suppose. Lately I'm having a hard time bottling up those things that bubble up when people start flinging arrows and stones. Some I deserve. Others, less so. Innocent comments get taken out of context and used to further some cause. I make a genuine post about an overwhelming feeling I have, and someone turns it into an accusation, based on some sort of internet statistic that proves I've posted in response to something else. Frankly, I don't see the connection. I get angry more often than I used to, but I often feel like I've been kicked in the gut too. I'm not accustomed to that one. It usually brings tears. Intended kindnesses are perceived as attempts to control. And this post will be labeled as an attempt to send someone on a guilt trip - but hey - if the shoe fits, baby, wear it out.
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